假笑

最近的我

一直在看喜剧

电影的

为什么？

因为我最近的心情

真的很down

down到就连看笑话都不会笑

看好笑的图也不会笑

问我为什么？

我不知道

所以，

我只好让我自己看喜剧

一直看一直看

一直笑

可是

好像起不了什么作用

因为我的笑点变得好高

大家觉得好笑的

我都觉得还好

但就算真的觉得好笑

看完了

也就笑完了

日常生活

还是一样的down

跟别人说话的时候

感觉自己的笑容好假

但又不能说不是我出自真心的笑

只是

在down的时候笑

让我自己觉得很假就是了

p/s:这只猫笑得够假吧？～

心情记事 6

sometimes
i think that
i don't have the qualification to have this blog name

i
am
not brave at all

i cant bear the betray
i cant bear the lie from other people
i cant bear the hurt from other people
i cant bear the criticism

i think
i juz couldnt handle all of these things

i don't know what is going on
i remember that
i was not used to be like that
i juz have my life in my own way
i wont care bout other people
i wont care any shit from them

since when
and how
i become so sensitive
y should i care so much
y should i let myself to be hurt
y cant i juz live my life as the past

why?!

i seriously dunnoe how to get back to the past

i was tired

reali tired

i juz

wan to have a normal life

is it a luxury?

wonder

presentation b4 the end of internship

tmr will be fiona and my turn to present
we are the first group

will i nervous?
seriously,
no idea
well,
mayb a little bit

because you know what?
we were supposed to present on tuesday
but, no one set up the projector XD
so~~
postpone to tomorrow

so,
my feeling of nervous already decrease much

let's pray that i will have a successful presentation ba
a za a za fighting~~

拉伤

在实习的最后一个月里
我竟然拉到了我的背部肌肉

一开始是因为做ripple mattress
要拉pipe
拉一拉
就拉到背后了

再后来
也就是前几天
因为要拉board
太紧了
要硬拔
结果
背部左边的肌肉又痛了 T.T


我
真的是
脆弱啊～～～

童年阴影

说真的
有没有童年阴影
对一个人的未来
真的有很大的影响

我个人就是因为有童年阴影
所以严重缺乏安全感
而且容易受到惊吓

今天
阿头应该是心情不好或什么的
突然乱扔乱踢东西
我真的真的有被吓到

突然之间
那种感觉
就像小时候的那种感觉一样
又回来了
真的会怕