你说的话

让我觉得窝心

但是

我希望你能够对我说

我等你

只要有这句话就够了

原来

我不知道

原来

只是准备一个小小的庆功宴

也可以这么累

累到让我觉得

我不想去了

我只想把幕后的工作做好

剩下的

就留给你们大家去享受

可是

我又好想亲眼看到各位满意开心的样子

真是矛盾

第一次的全副武装

第一次在跆拳道练习里

全副武装地打sparring

何谓全副武装？

就是穿着gloves, helmet, and shoes

是sparring需要穿的鞋子。。

不是一般的鞋子哦。。

我的第一次全副武装

是ah pua帮我穿的哦^^

第一次是和siew ching打

在那两场里

已经在右脚上添了一个黑青

过后sir要我和阿娟打

她直接给我combo meal

我几乎可说是应接不暇

结果

又多了个黑青

结果

真的顶不住了

只好暂停

好痛

痛得要哭了

training at week 7

i am chatting wif loong now..

and talking about d training..

suddenly think that i 4gt to update the training..LOL

how 4gtful i am..


all rite..

when we were doing the warm up..

ah pua suddenly said got ppl will come..

i was wondering who is it..

and was thinking that is it ah loong will come?

coz seems like other ppl is quite not impossible to come..


end up...it is..

another senior came wif him..

seems like gonna spar for whole session today..==


i dun wan sparring~~


at 1st..black belt spar 1st...coz sir havent come..(always like tat...==)

i tot ryan will ask black belt girl to spar wif me..

since i m d only girl in colour belt..

phew..luckily..he didnt..coz got 3 female black belt...yeah~~


when sir came..ah loong lead colour belt train pattern

oh ya..d colout belt that attended only 6..not including the tarcian

then edmund and ah pua teach the white belt..


arh~~i played d pattern wrongly..

watever la...=w=

then ah sir teach colour belt self defense

he let ah loong to guide the green belt n black belt sparring

they spar til very shiok..

it's true..


after tat...ending of training

sir talked about the tournament at Ipoh..

Eason is going to take part in it..

his 1st competition in TKD...wish him all the best...


about the trip..

sir asked for opinion from me !!

he said i got many comments at fb about d trip

sir~tat 1 is not comments la..is asking Q

dunnoe which fellow told sir..==


yesterday training...

so-so

hehe...juz pattern..

i tot got sparring...since sir even bring the protective guard..phew

tot will juz sparring only..hehe

心情记事 3

dis sem i start to train back my taekwondo ^^
quite happy actually..hehe

during recruitment..
many ppl come and ask about d details..
mostly are girls..haha
and most of them are from WTF..i dunnoe why..

we started the training at week 2
ah loong came our 1st training in dis sem...
at 2nd training..i had to left early..ngek ngek

3rd training..which is in dis week..
my lower lip kena kick by black belt senior..
during 1 step sparring..haha
but it is just a minor injury..although got bleed a bit..
hahaha

there will be a training trip at july..
i think..i m not able to go gua..
no money~~T_T
haiz...

PTPTN..when will the money come???
i wanna pay my bill..(1st time pay d bill late...)
i wanna buy books...
i wanna return money to my sis...
i wanna buy a new aquarium for my turtles..

already week 4..week 5 is coming...
start to have lots of assignments and lab reports...
date of test oso set ady..
at 1st 3 weeks ..everything was so relax...
now..seems like everything come into my life sekaligus...

all rite..gonna gambateh ady...
a za a za fighting~~~

心情记事 2

有好多好多的事情想说

但是却不知道该从何说起

也许是懒惰了吧

又或许是觉得无所谓了



无所谓

真的

很多事情

真的可以很无所谓

但是

可以无所谓到怎样的地步呢？

无法无天吗？

当然不能


但是

是无所谓带来了逃避

还是逃避带来了无所谓

我

不知道

你呢？

你知道吗？


知道的话

请告诉我吧


我

累了


真的


累了

心情记事 1

看着身边一个个朋友
正在做着我想做的事
真的觉得好好哦

比如说
到国外留学
是我一直都在想的事情
但我知道我做不到
所以，当我看着身边的朋友一个个出国念书时
心里还是有些安慰
因为我会当作是
他们正在帮我完成我的梦想

到处去旅行
尤其是台湾
我一直都很想去
看着身边的朋友一个个都去过台湾旅行
看着他们的照片
会想象着
以后如果我有机会的话
也一定要去他们去过的地方看看
用我自己的眼睛
现阶段
只能当作是
他们正在帮我完成我想做的事

想跟朋友到处去走走，去旅行
总觉得
大学生活
就应该是跟朋友去走走
吃好吃的
看新奇的
玩好玩的
甚至拍照留念
然后假期的时候再来个几天几夜的旅行
但总是有些因素而无法完成
所以
当看着朋友出游的照片
就会觉得好羡慕
而我知道
这些事情
现在的我无法做
当我毕业了以后
就更加不可能了
因为已经没有学生时期的那种感觉了

有好多好多的事情
有好多好多我想做的事请
都超出我的能力以外
为什么人总爱想着他们无法做到的事情呢？
难道只因为幻想着的梦最美？

到了什么时候
我才可以做我想做的事情
完成我的梦想呢？

好多好多的事情
我都好想去做
我不知道我还剩下多少时间
下一秒会发生什么事
我们谁也不知道
更不用说明天了

如果问我
下一秒和明天
哪一个会先到
我会回答
下一秒，会先到

人生就像一场游戏一场梦

人生就像一场游戏一场梦

多数人对这句歌词应该不陌生吧
我忘了是谁唱的。。也懒得去找
只是突然间。。想起这句歌词

说真的
如果人生是一场游戏一场梦的话
我希望可以马上结束这场游戏
因为我已经累了。。不想再玩下去了
我希望可以马上从这场梦中醒来
因为我已经不想再继续做这场梦了。。

或许人生是一场游戏一场梦
所以
我们凡是都不应该太过于计较
因为。。这是一场早晚都要结束的游戏或梦

或许有人会说
既然早晚都要结束
那么就要轰轰烈烈的活着
这要才对得起自己
但是对于某些人而言
他们并不想要轰轰烈烈的
因为。。他们经历了比轰轰烈烈还难过的事
所以。。
他们变得只想要安安静静的活着
因为
他们已经累了
累得不知道该怎么样去面对这个世界
这个现实的社会
这个残酷的世间

那是因为
这个世界太复杂了
他们不知道
到底该怎么做
才可以达到平衡
没有人能够告诉他们答案
他们试了又试
试了又试
终究还是找不到答案

结果
他们放弃了
他们只想做个
凡夫俗子
平平凡凡的人

但是
他们越想要安静的活着
就越是有越来越多麻烦的事情等着他们
他们也不想给自己和别人带来困扰
但是，事总与愿违

于是
他们变得疾世愤俗
这或许就是为什么有这么多罪案发生的原因吧
但
也有的不知该怎么办
他们没法解决那些问题
也找不到可信的人倾诉
结果
在日积月累的情况之下
造就了这么多精神问题的个案

问题来了
我
会是属于哪一个呢？

3rd upgrading test

the 2nd Taekwondo upgrading test is at PJ

today, the 3rd 1..is at UTAR S block again..


unfortunately..

i couldn't take part in this time...

because i din attend the training in this sem..

due to my studies...

i failed at my 1st sem..


so..

if i fail again..

my PTPTN will gone ...

so..i'm sorry sir...i have to give up the training this sem.


all right..

no matter how...

i went and saw their upgrading test..

very funny la wei..keke

dis time seems like more girls ady...

haha...

oh ya..ah pua oso take part in exam this time..

quite good ya..

Johnson...dun think so much liao la..

test past liao...n u oso pass liao ma..juz train more lo...

and hor ...d double promotion got double promotion AGAIN!!

it is the 3rd double promotion for him ady..

really very geng leh..


after that..we all went to Stevens' corner to eat...

coz the test is at 11.30 am...until around 4pm...

so everyone havent take their lunch..


we went there to eat...

and chit-chatting,..

and c d photos...coz today many ppl bring camera la..


by the way..Johnson have to leave here for UK to study ady..

how pity la...dis sem din join the traning with him..

even i join next sem oso cant play with him liao..haa


never mind la..still got other funny ppl ma..kaka

wish me to get good result this sem la..

so that i can join them in next sem..

coz promise ppl that i'll join in next sem liao..

so....gambateh la..

bless me~~~~~



*praying kuat kuat

有吗？

今天中午Ryan拿我的水壶给我的时候
一见面他劈头就问
“做么你越来越瘦了的？”

有吗？
比起上次我拿水壶给你的时候
我过后有吃比较多一点了哦
怎么可能会比较瘦
哈哈


ehm
今天真的突然有感而发
觉得
Ryan和ah kam 给我的感觉都一样
就想一个大哥哥
就是很照顾人的那种
就像lim kean woei一样
（mei peng，我没有别的意思哦～千万别误会哦～呵呵）

虽说我自己也有哥哥
可是我却没有觉得有哥哥的感觉
反倒是他们让我觉得有哥哥的那种感觉

每一次看到他们的时候
心情就会变得很好
感觉就像遇到会关心自己的人一样
然后又什么都可以聊
很舒服的感觉

即便只是一个很小的动作或举动
就能让我倍感窝心

所以呢
Ryan = ah kam = lim kean woei
都是我的大哥哥
muahaha~~~~

to my French lecturer

well, although my french lecturer's birthday in on the coming Monday..
but we celebrated for him at today class..after the mid-term test...

well...when he said that he had never have a birthday cake since he was 17 or 18 years old..
even his 21th birthday....
i was so shock!
because..i thought that everyone in this world will celebrate their birthday each year with birthday cake and many presents...
except me..

so when he spoke out those words..i can know his feeling..
it seems like: OMG! somebody remember my birthday! i have birthday cake!
he looked so touched...
i was afraid that he might cry..hahaha

anyway...my classmates were playing with him...haha...
and some even taking photo...seen even took the video..
he was almost crying..haha..(kidding la)

at the end...everyone was very enjoyed the celebration...
even thought i was so stress since early in the morning..
because i had 2 tests today...French in the morning and Maths II in the afternoon...
but...after his celebration..the feeling was much more relax..

actually..i was not like his class very much..
seriously...
maybe it is because i don't like his western style way of teaching or talking or whatever...
but..i don't know why..i was so enjoyed his class today..
i mean after the celebration...
i don't know..
maybe it was because i was in mood that time..
i was laughing happily..hahahaha
maybe it was also because it was a long time since i laugh so happily..
i can't do that even thought i watch comedy...
i don't know...

anyway..
today is a good day..
i will remember it...
sir~~happy birthday oo...hope you will have another birthday cake on the coming Monday and every year onwards~
^^

在唯一最后的烧肉饭

今天
将会是我在唯一最后的烧肉饭
那一档的饭我再也不会去吃了

因为

有虫！！！



我刚刚一边看戏一边吃饭啊
然后突然看到饭里面有虫
（已经没有生命迹象的）

天啊！
我刚刚一边看戏一边扒饭的时候都没有注意到
搞不好我已经吃了好几条了呢～*呕*

所以咯
以后就算是一边看戏一边吃饭
也还是要注意饭里面有没有‘其他的东西’


哎～
最近真是衰啊～
都不知道今天会不会lao sai~
哎～

为什么

为什么

原本以为的事情
却竟然不是这样

后来后来
才发现
这几个月
朋友们都经历了好多好多的事情
有好的
也有不好的

感觉
人
好脆弱
不一定只有在死神面前才这样
在某些事情面前
人
也会是很脆弱的

我真的不知道
到底该怎么办
原本没有对与错的事情
竟然也都有了答案
难道真的是因为时代的变迁
造就了现在所有的事情吗？

我真的好无助
没人能倾诉
没人能帮忙
我真的好痛苦
我的心脏
真的负荷不了了

感觉
渐渐地
呼吸不到了

空气
好像
越来越稀薄

越来越



稀薄